Saturday, January 12, 2008
#226. The burden is GONE.
He's gone from my life. But I don't know what to say.
Vin & I hope that its going to be a clean break. I hope that it is. I am easily swayed by my emotions.
This time, everyone is clear-headed. Not the fast and confusing break before. Its final.
It's not as painful now, cos time wears off the passion and hurt. I don't really feel my heart break. That's good I think. It feels so real, cos we crossed the line.
Vin was right.
As always.
And like the usual me, stupid and bo chap. I don't rectify problems til its too late.
Its been months since I feel that no its not right. Vin says so too. But i figured that ignoring the problem (or running away) is easier. So, I let it lie til we are all tired of the fucking stupid pretence and give it all up.
Its less uhm, painful for everyone xD
He's not the right one, I am not the right one. & til we meet again, hope that he's got a nicer girlfriend than me.
No more "funny business" this year, not at least til the end of my GCE O Levels anyways.
Well on a lighter & happier note, I feel that I don't owe anyone anything now.
Except... Well, Xuan... He gave me the hacks (yay!) but I owe him one, BIG TIME.
Why am I blogging at this ungodly hour ;D I don't know.
But I want to thank Vin for being such a great friend x3!
She's always around (just nice, by fate, or chance.) when all these things happen. o.o
I don't know why xD
Loves the girly lots. She even found the best contact lenses for me. Thank God for such a nice girl. x33~