Wednesday, January 23, 2008
#236.
SY forwarded this chain mail to me, which I thought was kinda touching. (I hardly get these type of emotions nowadays, considering that I am a semi-robotic person with no feelings ;X
Here's the contents of the email.
DO YOU LOVE SOMEONE THIS MUCH?
A girl and guy were speeding over 100 mph on the road on a motorcycle...
Girl: Slow down. Im scared.
Guy: No this is fun.
Girl: No its not. Please, its too scary!
Guy: Then tell me you love me.
Girl: Fine, I love you. Slow down!
Guy: Now give me a BIG hug.
Girl hugs him
Guy: Can you take my helmet off & put it on yourself? Its bugging me.
In the paper the next day :(
A motorcycle had crashed into a building because of brake failure. Two people were on it, but only one had survived.
The truth was that halfway down the road, the guy realized that his brakes broke, but he didn't want to let the girl know. Instead, he had her say she loved him & felt her hug him one last time, then had her wear his helmet so that she would live even though it meant that he would die.
Guys like him in the story shouldn't die, I know of jerks who deserve to crash and burn.
Dad says, good guys die young. You mean if I live to a hundred then I am evil? How about the increased life spans of Singaporeans? Meaning lots of us are evil too? I don't get him sometimes.
I don't understand why a friend can drift so far away from me. Is it just me? It's just been a holiday, yet I have not spoken 10 sentences to her.
She used to be a good friend whom I held dear to my heart, yet, I now feel like I can't say a thing to her. I feel I don't know her. Maybe I never did.
It could be a case of conflict in interests that we drift apart. Like a few of the others. Or maybe we never really can get together without help from other friends. Or she found a better group of friends. And is drifting away because of that.
I am not a very good friend. I am not a very good girl either.
I am not pristine, I am not the best girly in the world. I don't behave like an angel, I seldom have any use to people. Except to accompany them etc etc.
But, I will be very open with it. Friends come and go, like how I am to them, and how they are to me, they are just random passers-by in my life.
I feel like I live double lives. The cover of me is a screaming, hysterical and extremely high girl.
Happy, content. But all I want to do is just to clam up sometimes, like today. In the morning assembly. I practically didn't say a word.
XY was worried. She was asking me alot of questions like "Tired? Sian? Sleepy?" I just shook my head. Then she tried "No mood arh?"
I didn't want her to worry anymore, so I attempted to reply. -.-! It felt as if it was a tremendous effort mentally and physically to reply. But I did open my mouth and say "Maybe". -with a little smile-
I am sorry, really sorry if my posts are getting too dead, heavy and boring.
Its just me, I lost that zest that I used to have in life.
Or maybe is that I am going to face alot more things in life and that I am stepping out in to society soon. Reality, afterall, hits hard. Often mercilessly.