Tuesday, August 14, 2007
emo-s
ok la.
to be honest, i wasn't feeling all that happy today.
i think its the exam stress setting in -.-
xy seems to have detected it. (: she's a very sensitive person. but stubborn too.
she ask me " yuting, you got moodswing ar? "
" yuting, you today not happy ar? "
i did not msg anyone in class today, until after school, and i ate something.
i don't want people to get pissed off by me, because i was very cold to xy in class, and i was slow to respond.
i hope she won't mind, i was just having a bad day, and she was my victim.
i was wrong to do that la, i felt that by ignoring people, you make them feel sad.
i then went to the library to study.
ok la, but it felt like a marathon. ^^ sms marathon. hing n edwin msg me.
den hing msg very fast lor -.- later then i ignore everybody ler.
cos i want to study! lols
lols this friday hing's birthday, know then i realise.
no wonder he so good mood ask me out on fri -.-
that guy wants a present ar? lols -.-
on the way home i saw a few QX blah blah blah cars.
CID de car o.o
my dad told me before.
then, the tests.
my dad keeps repeating about me passing my maths.
one word about maths, he can piss me off badly, its the thing parents do.
damnit.
its not like I DON'T WANT TO PASS.
you don't have to BLOODY HELL ACT, LIKE I AM TRYING NOT TO PASS.
i tried, i DO PRACTICE.
MY MATHS FILE DOES NOT LIE.
YOU DON'T HAVE TO FREAKING CRITCISE ME, ON EVERY LITTLE THING THAT I DO, THAT YOU DO NOT LIKE.
ELSE I AM GONNA SWEAR, YOU STILL DON'T KNOW, HOW MUCH DID I IMPROVE, ON MY DAMNED VOCAB.
OH NO YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW ME ON THE FRIGGIN' TIP OF THE BLOODY ICEBERG.
YEAH I AM DAMNED BUAY SONG. IF YOU DON'T WANT TO SET ME OFF, DON'T COME NEAR ME, SERIOUS.
THE MORE YOU TRY TO HIDE YOUR FLAWS, TO COVER UP, THE MORE OBVIOUS IT BECOMES.
ITS TRUE, I EXPERIENCED IT, AND IT WAS'T VERY PRETTY.
THE THING ABOUT ME GIVING IN TO MY BROTHER.
THE NEXT TIME YOU PISS ME OFF AGAIN, I AM NOT GOING TO HAVE ANY RESERVATION.
HE'S HUMAN, AND I AM TOO.
I AM A HUMAN BEING AND I DO HAVE FEELINGS.
I HAVE, MY OWN RIGHTS TO YELL AT HIM IF HE'S WRONG.
IT DOES NOT MEAN THAT IF YOU ARE A GIRL YOU HAVE TO GIVE IN TO A GUY.
IT ALSO MEANS THAT I DON'T HAVE TO GIVE IN TO MY BROTHER, BECAUSE HE'S A GUY AND I AM A GIRL.
IT PISSES ME OFF.
I TELL YOU, THAT YOU KNOW YOUR OWN DAUGHTER HAS A TEMPER, YOU TOLD HER ITS BAD.
SHE LISTENS AND SHE CHANGES.
NOW WHY DON'T YOU TELL THAT TO YOUR OWN SON?!
DAMN!
IT MAKES ME REAL MAD, AND I HAVE TO GET THIS OUT SOMEWHERE.
YOU TOLD ME MANY TIMES, NOT ONCE OR TWICE.
I HAD ENOUGH,
1 MORE TIME, IS ALL YOU NEED.
I SWEAR I AM GOING TO BLOODY YELL IN YOUR FACE.
THAT YOU ARE WRONG.
you know what?
i think i am getting my bad temper back.
i won't hesitate anymore, this is your last warning, i swear.
and if i don't get mad anymore, it means that i don't care.
blame me all you want then,
because i am sure to fall...