Tuesday, July 31, 2007
sian
today i am very sian la, went to cwp to have a bubbletea then i went home.
slacked, read the newspapers and did nothing but to sms my EDWINa mummy~ lols
today my brain very lag lor.
like hang then you have to re-start it or something like that.
especially when i had like dnt and poa lessons together.
catastrophic effects they have on my oh-so-fragile brain cells.
i estimate 10% of my brain cells have detoriated into nothingness.
my "edwina"mummy just offered to buy wallet with me because my friends are too busy.
hahas, thanks for the offer though "mummy".
hehehs, how he become my mummy very long story lor.
hohos.
all cause we met on MAPLE.
rofl.
if i wasnt so friggin' bored that friggin' day i won't go on9.
if not for that guy i wont even start another bo liao char in bootes.
hur hur.
if nots....
fate lur.
it brings people together and will also tear them apart.
so i won't like to have like err...
be too attached to people i met online.
like what qiule once said.
"we'd have to draw a clear line between whats real and whats not. because reality is different from the fantasy worlds online"
i want to add on that fanatsy world only give you a tempoary escape from the real world.
its similar to getting drunk.
the feeling of numbing your senses and emotions may feel very good.
but when you wake up, you are back to the real world.
you cant forever live in your fanatsy islands.
you have to come out, get out and go out into the real, cold, and harsh world.
nobody's going to live your fanatsies with you.
NOBODY.
i have resolved, from my past experiences, to learn how to seperate fantasies and the real world.
or i will eventually get hurt in one way or another.
this, may explain why i behave differently online and real life.
afterall, what you see in me online may be lacking in the real life me.
you may only, like my online personna, and thats that.
our lives, relationships exists only in the cyber world.
full-stop.
thats all i want to vent out today.
my brain's so severly clogged up,
i have to put it down in writing so that i can put a finger on how exactly do i feel about a particular subject.
have a good day today.