Monday, September 17, 2007
THEORY(my crap)
me, ping n mindy was walking to cwp, when we saw this guy frm our sch, same lv blah blah blah smoking as he walked to school. evidently, without even the need to use a single brain cell, you sure will know he skipped school that day.
that set me thinking.
why are they wasting their time away?
if we can seperate students, to the good students (tri-sci / hardworking people, doesnt create trouble and misbehaves) and the bad (sch-ponners, smokers, slackers, etc etc, you know la), then alot of people in my class are stuck in the middle.
sure, i do know that some of the students in my class smoke, skip classes and stuff, but the school do take it seriously and punish them accordingly. but they have to realise that, if they put in much more effort, like really understanding them, there is still some hope in making them turn back.
if i am to classify myself, i will put myself in the middle. for example, i don't really ostracise people unless they are behaving in a ridiculous manner, or really pissing me off.
by that i mean SERIOUSLY RIDICULOUS. like a tri-sci student CRYING IN CLASS BECAUSE SHE DIDN'T GET AN 'A'. this makes me feel really ridiculous la.
nb... this type of people also have...
i can mix really well with a few of the not so stuck-up tri-sci peeps well, and i don't mind the more 'naughty' students.
oops, side-tracked. ps.
reason why i put myself in the middle is because i don't really pass up my homework on time (i do try...) i TRY to do my homework, and the last thing you are going to catch me doing is skipping school.
but i am not exactly a hard-working student, and not exactly a slacker.
so that sets me in the middle.
why do i think like this when my brother doesn't mix with the baddies is because, i fell from the ladder before.
the ladder that people climb to get to the top.
i fell off it, and i went near to the bottom.
i know how's it like, to be the bottom.
i met nice people at the "bottom". its not that they are bad, its just that they are just slower in maturity of their thinking. they do not think studies is important, and it makes no sense to study. i did feel like that before, at the start of the year. when i am allocated to 3/9.
i fell down the ladder, the same as years ago. in primary school, in primary 3.
that was still alright, my mother was still there for me, gently nudging me back up the ladder.
then, i fell again, alone, in sec2.
i lost the morale to fight, to study, to carry on.
i feel that every single lesson i took was meaningless.
it makes no sense to study science, because i am not going to be a scientist or have jobs related to it in the future!
so why do i study the subject for? the purpose being?
to pass time?
my dad explained a whole lot of stuff to me, trying to get me back up.
afterall, being educated is important.
in this type of elitist society, so practical and real that it hurts, having a degree is a basic necessity.
i somewhat understood.
but remained the same with my attitude of studying hard.
can't really be bothered.
having the right friends really help,
i mean look at the people like xy, aliv, yp they all...
they really helped me...
they constantly reminded me not to slack, not to game too much, though i still do fall in the traps i created for myself, they will pull me back up to reality.
they reminded me reguarly to pull up my socks, and to work hard.
i am grateful to them, really.
now i think i understand what my father means...
its not really nice...