Tuesday, July 31, 2007
sian
today i am very sian la, went to cwp to have a bubbletea then i went home.
slacked, read the newspapers and did nothing but to sms my EDWINa mummy~ lols
today my brain very lag lor.
like hang then you have to re-start it or something like that.
especially when i had like dnt and poa lessons together.
catastrophic effects they have on my oh-so-fragile brain cells.
i estimate 10% of my brain cells have detoriated into nothingness.
my "edwina"mummy just offered to buy wallet with me because my friends are too busy.
hahas, thanks for the offer though "mummy".
hehehs, how he become my mummy very long story lor.
hohos.
all cause we met on MAPLE.
rofl.
if i wasnt so friggin' bored that friggin' day i won't go on9.
if not for that guy i wont even start another bo liao char in bootes.
hur hur.
if nots....
fate lur.
it brings people together and will also tear them apart.
so i won't like to have like err...
be too attached to people i met online.
like what qiule once said.
"we'd have to draw a clear line between whats real and whats not. because reality is different from the fantasy worlds online"
i want to add on that fanatsy world only give you a tempoary escape from the real world.
its similar to getting drunk.
the feeling of numbing your senses and emotions may feel very good.
but when you wake up, you are back to the real world.
you cant forever live in your fanatsy islands.
you have to come out, get out and go out into the real, cold, and harsh world.
nobody's going to live your fanatsies with you.
NOBODY.
i have resolved, from my past experiences, to learn how to seperate fantasies and the real world.
or i will eventually get hurt in one way or another.
this, may explain why i behave differently online and real life.
afterall, what you see in me online may be lacking in the real life me.
you may only, like my online personna, and thats that.
our lives, relationships exists only in the cyber world.
full-stop.
thats all i want to vent out today.
my brain's so severly clogged up,
i have to put it down in writing so that i can put a finger on how exactly do i feel about a particular subject.
have a good day today.
Monday, July 30, 2007
70 th post
whoots!
70th post baby!
har hars,
yeah an attempt at being lame,
my most blogged blog ever (:
ho-hum...
i realised i've become abit mellow-er these days...
sign of maturity? hahas -.-
Thursday, July 26, 2007
ow...
i very accident-prone, i just realised. let me recount the accidents i have, its not alot, but its painful. or lets just say its sore =.="
err
1. dance - warmup then err... *coughs* never warmup properly then... accidentally strain my back abit. and my right -arm... still hurts when stretching.
2. home - maid lah -,- never mop the floor dry, like she normally does, then i walk in the kitchen and... yeah slipped. my butt hurts, so does my back. =.= its no wonder if i were to break my spine and then die one day.
3. school - walking and talking on the way up to class on the stairs when i accidentally knocked myself against the railing. (note: the railing doesn't have a rounded edge)
thats 3 injuries that injured me, obviously.
but the rest of the day i continued to gravitate towards things that are likely to poke me somewhere or to cause me grevious hurt.
note, i don't even want to be in the kitchen, you don't realise how many knives are in there.
har-har. lets hope there's nothing to harm me near my computer, even if there is, i would still be here
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
-silence-
the world's messy
very... cant stand it
when you're gone - avril lavinge
I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cried
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie
Is made up on your side
When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it okay
I miss you
I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do
Reminds me of you
And the clothes you left
They lie on the floor
And they smell just like you
I love the things that you do
When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it ok
I miss you
We were made for each other
Out here forever I know we were
Yeah, yeah
And all I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I do I give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me
Yeah
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear will always get me through the day
And make it ok
I miss you
[ 人往往都不会珍惜在身边的人，只有当他们不在时，才会想念他们。但通常都已经太迟了。学会珍惜，有那么难吗？也许是吧。我还没学会，你早已不在了。。。]
Tuesday, July 24, 2007
他和她
他和她天天都在学校，街上擦肩而过， 但是他和她都没有和彼此说过一句话。
他在学校的篮球队，但她只是一个再也普通不过的女孩儿。
他每天放学后，不是在校园的一个角落静静的弹钢琴。
钢琴的旋律，就是那么的温和，那么的柔和。
有一天，下着大雨， 所以，他没有篮球训练， 因此，偷偷跑到校里的一个角落抽烟。
突然，在雨中听到了钢琴的旋律。那旋律是那么的轻柔，那么的脆弱，仿佛会突然间结束似的。
他被钢琴的旋律吸引了，便悄悄地走到了她和钢琴后。
过了一阵子，她弹完乐曲子，转过身，看了正在抽烟的他。
他看了她一眼，若无其事地说，“很好听，改天再弹给我听。”
过后，转了身子就走了。
她便呆呆的，傻傻的坐在椅子上，感觉上有一点受宠若惊。
毕竟，是全校最帅最受欢迎的男生和她说了话。
雨，不知不觉中停了。。。
-to be continued-
ee stupid weather nah -,-
so fking cold today.
went to get err qw de b-day present after sch, he very picky but anyways... =.=
we gt him an ink de bag... small sling de
look quite ok la.
he wan sling de so...
he take sling bag not nice de la...
me and qiule thinks so la.
what ever lor, his birthday mahh...
he happy jiu hao, nt my prob ><
today i audi gt the seriously stiff fingers de problems...
sian diao...
somemore weather so cold like shit ><
den argh...
=.="
i did lame shit things lols... dont tell u ><
bb
Monday, July 23, 2007
so siannn...
today's like so sian lor.
assembly is like so lame sht de.
what debating? more like normal story-telling. even story-telling's like more exciting can?
anyways i umpired for the street-bandy. i must say that i am not very good =.="
after the assembly was poa, tr was angry blah blah blahs~
not my problem because it wasn't me he was angry at.
i wont want to be at the recieving end of his wrath though. =/
err den after that was pe.
it was nice la (wa biang ehhs nt beat city again -,- my com's media player always random tio beat city and b soul funk, like i m not sick of them already) ermm i played volleyball.
as usual hand pain, cus the ball whack me, nt i whack the ball =D
err den in the end we played tossing with the ball instead. somebody got into trouble cos somebody skipped pe n was wandering 'round the sch -.- lame sht lols.
den we had recess, nt fun cus my baobeiis, xingyi wasn't there. i went with qiu le =D
had a drink = bandung den went up to class to err slack lor.
den is humanities =,= ii hate history, is my grandfather de story, nt mine, yet i had to pass exams asking bout his generation -,-
gahhs -,- but was interesting cus tr talk bout nice nice stories bout her sch anderson sec. lols
1cm fringe -,- i will commit suicide if my fringe's 1cm -,-"
anyways after that was english =P
had a nice tr who came in,
after that gt a buey song tr come in so strict and fierce de =.=
err heard later that she was not in a good mood so -,- heng nt my english teacher now, that's all i say =D
erm den is chinese, lame sht lesson -,- gt sms ppl den not so sian.
haha so funny de lor -,-
i put my handphone in my pencil case so when it vibrated my table will vibrate a lil' too ^^
hilarious lol =P
kekes~ den went home -,-
sian dao~~
now waiting for the stupid kfc delivery so slow...
biang ehhs call 'em till my arm pain again -,-
旧病复发 so stupid sehhs -,-
gahhs i go slack like sht ler ^^
bb~~
Saturday, July 21, 2007
aww... my hair -,-
ii went to cut my hair with xingyi all the way to bukit gombak.
now, i am like erm, heartbroken?
gahhs -,- my hair
nvr mind,
its nt as if it wont grow back again ^^
hehehs (:
then it will be long again, and...
i might have the impulse to cut it all off again
rofl ^^
Thursday, July 19, 2007
ii want t0 sayy...
today, i went to cwp with piggy n she very emo after we had lunch (is emo the right word? o.o?)
anyways, i felt that the talk with her made me straightened out some of my thoughts regarding relationships with other people, and how to maintain a good healthy relationship with your peers.
i realised that while there are many gurus around, the best doctor is yourself.
because
1. you know yourself the best. others will not know you as much as you do because, you lived with yourself for your entire life.
2. like the way some people are allergic to certain medication, certain people are allergic to how problems should be resolved. the best way is for the doctor (yourself) to fix the problem w/o incurring any allergies from the persons involved.
having a high EQ, for sure, can help you to solve problems easier. EQ can be developed, i believe so.
it is important, for the way you treat other people will relflect back on you. being popular doesn't mean anything, it doesn't mean anything at all. because i've seen somewhat "popular" people become notoriously "unpopular". what goes around comes around.
don't scorn others, for you are not that good yourself.
me, being an arien, is generally unfussy about how others treat her, unless you purposely do things with a malicious purpose, or do somethings that clearly state your unhappiness towards her.
what an arien girl prefers is : if you do not like some part about me, come, let's sit down and talk. maybe i am in the wrong, maybe i need to change, come tell me what's the problem. if its really my problem, i will try to change.
but however if the other party still refuses to budge, then its YOUR problem, if the arien too ignores you, or even becomes nasty.
a tooth for a tooth, an eye for an eye.
i belive in karma.
i've had several rewarding friendships, and friendships that turned sour. nobody is to blame, for maybe we were not to be. if there's a long-lying unidentified problem, lying behind the scenes silently, nobody will know for sure, why relationships turn sour.
i've learnt to be more open, people are always not what i thought them to be.
i've learnt to brood less on unhealthy issues. and i will learn to become stronger
Wednesday, July 18, 2007
the return
ii always chg, ii will nvr be the same lols...
there are mani sides of me waiting to break out all at the right moment ^^
ii chaiined x14 (yay) my highest no. of chain for a song... U know in audi (90 bpm)
iit may not seem alots to some pros -,-
but iit meant alot to me!!
my currently faved songs in audii are
-milk- derhs singer derhs songs (:
and, erm.
-audition- take it, catch, u know, new york, night (plus summore la ^^ i like new york and night cus its so fking vulgar x) )
hmmss....
-freestyle- y (my chain song ^^ when i got the mood bahhs, play this song so much that i can chain pretty well now)
-se7en- songs are nice (:
-lexy- not as much known as the others, but i kinda like her style =D
-dj doc- certain songs are nice... like dr murphys law 124bpm
-jewellery- songs like how are you (110bpm) , heart (102 bpm?), superstar (156 bpm) etc etc etc.
-jung hyun lee- welcome to my style (rated: FAVE, 97 bpm) lets go, hey heyy sexy, uh- huh. baby girl you know what i feel in your style. heyy foxy, say wha'? you kno i wanna ride with you... lalala~
-la bouche- i wanna be your lover (135 bpm) and swt dreams
oh ya... and the 188bpm song... which ii forgt the song name. its quite cute. hahas.certain audi songs are vulgar, i've come to realise, like:
-new york- 96bpm
lyrics here:http://forums.playpark.net/showpost.php?p=837320&postcount=43
-night- 128bpm
no need to think la... the lyrics are all "fk it... fk fk fk fk it..." what nonsense de norhs =.=
lols funnie right?
lols i am so darned lame ^^
friggin headache's buggin me.. so ii gna take a nap (:
drink HL milk (its nice ^^)
growing up
i always look back at my past and always felt that the me yesterday or the month before, in the past, was childish.
this made me realised that i am growing up day by day, everyday.
sure some people think that i realised this possibly too late, but to me, its never too late.
i want to be a girl, who's strong, and is able to stand up by her own when she falls.
i do not strive to have lives like the celebrities, living a glamorous life. because i realised that behind all the fame and glamour, they may not live happy lives. being ordinary is a blessing too.
i do not hope to be superficial, for this hurts me as much as it hurts you.
being superficial meant that you view people on the surface, may it be beautiful or flawed. and judge solely on what you see, and the way you judge them is unfair.
you never will know a person inside and out. for many of us are living behind a mask to conceal our real self, for fear of negative critique from the society.
people's thinking changes everyday. you will never be able to get to really know that person. even a good friend who has been with you for a long long time.
perhaps...
i will look back,
and reflect upon today.
and realise, how childish to write all these today.
that, perhaps,
is one point i will never change.
who knows?
Thursday, July 12, 2007
$#^!%@#!
today i am super super mad at myself
y?
cus i m a fking idiot
FKING IDIOT!!!
tmd i so mad at myself and everyone else...
so i kept snapping at others....
tmd. fk o levels.
NEXT YR I RETAKE LA...
SURE GET LOUSY SCORE DE
Wednesday, July 4, 2007
^$@&^@#1
today siibeii suay
taking note of it nia
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